Empire of the Sun
When I look back on my life it’s not that I don’t want to see things exactly as they happened, it’s just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way. And truthfully the lie of it all is much more honest because I invented it. Clinical psychology tells us arguably that trauma is the ultimate killer. Memories are not recycled like atoms and particles in quantum physics. They can be lost forever. It’s sort of like my past is an unfinished painting and as the artist of that painting I must fill in all the ugly holes, and make it beautiful again. It’s not that I have been dishonest; it’s just that I loathe reality
The truth is back at the clinic they only wore those funny hats to keep the blood out of their hair.
You may say "I lost everything". But I still had my Be-Dazzler. And I had a lot of patches, shiny ones from M&J Trimming. So I wreaked havoc on some old denim. And I did what any girl would do; I did it all over again.
Nothing scares anymore.
I feeling electric tonight.
I feel it everywhere.
Oh you dear, I'm a firebomb.
The smell of your skin lingers on me now.
You're probably on your flight back to your home town.
I need some shelter of my own protection,
To be with myself and center clarity, peace, serenity.
I hope you know,
That this has nothing to do with you.
It's personal: myself and I.
We've got some straightenin' out to do.
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket,
But I've got to get a move on with my life.
It's time to be a big boys now.
And big boys don't cry
The path that I'm walking I must go alone.
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full-grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay?
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards.
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine.
Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too.
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds.
But it's time for me to go home.
It's getting late and dark outside.
I need to be with myself and center clarity, peace, serenity.